Clicking into this so many times. In and out, in and out.
I so wanna write something, as there's too many inside me that i couldn't find a way to let it out.
I am going through a phase, right now. Is like going back to time, when i was full of doubts, hopeless and dull. Too many BLACKS had blended inside my WHITE life, it became GREY. Oh yes, i am feeling grey.
Grey is like, neither black nor white. Neither good nor bad. Meaning i am unsure. In between. Confused. I realised what i have done these while, is like i am returning being a child, or should say teenager, a rebellious one. I know what is wrong to do, yet I made myself doing it. Funny? I have no idea what is wrong with me.
Maybe, I am not who i used to think I am? It's like, the connection between me and myself had lost, all of a sudden, BAMMmm. Gone. Where is the trust I had for myself? Please don't leave, come back!!
I am so down. REALLY down. Lower than the bottom of the deepest ocean. I tried to swim to the surface. But it is too deep. Drowning. Couldn't breath.
I need my COLOURS back. I need my light back. I need to shine, I meant to be shining. I need to find the 'me' whom I used to trust and believe in. I need to move on. I need to leave. LEAVE. I want to leave. To somewhere no one knows me, to start over, to make new mistakes, to learn again.
I know it is not an excuse for me to run away. In fact, I am not running away. I just need new fresh air, new colours, new inspirations, new challenges. I need new life.
I don't need you to understand me if you don't want to. Too bad for ya. Understanding should come mutually, not by force. I am not born to please everyone, I am not born to be liked by everyone. I have my own friends who knows me well enough. and that's really satisfying, knowing that there's someone out there, understands you the way you understand yourself.
*there's period of time when you have no idea what to do. there's period of time when you can't differentiate right or wrong. there's period of time when you are so lost that you couldn't even recognise your way home. BUT, it is okay, because it's the period of time to make mistake, and learn again. it's like you only when you fall, you will know the way to stand up. TIME CONTINUES, LIFE GOES ON, DON'T GIVE UP.*
I WILL NOT GIVE UP.
I so wanna write something, as there's too many inside me that i couldn't find a way to let it out.
I am going through a phase, right now. Is like going back to time, when i was full of doubts, hopeless and dull. Too many BLACKS had blended inside my WHITE life, it became GREY. Oh yes, i am feeling grey.
Grey is like, neither black nor white. Neither good nor bad. Meaning i am unsure. In between. Confused. I realised what i have done these while, is like i am returning being a child, or should say teenager, a rebellious one. I know what is wrong to do, yet I made myself doing it. Funny? I have no idea what is wrong with me.
Maybe, I am not who i used to think I am? It's like, the connection between me and myself had lost, all of a sudden, BAMMmm. Gone. Where is the trust I had for myself? Please don't leave, come back!!
I am so down. REALLY down. Lower than the bottom of the deepest ocean. I tried to swim to the surface. But it is too deep. Drowning. Couldn't breath.
I need my COLOURS back. I need my light back. I need to shine, I meant to be shining. I need to find the 'me' whom I used to trust and believe in. I need to move on. I need to leave. LEAVE. I want to leave. To somewhere no one knows me, to start over, to make new mistakes, to learn again.
I know it is not an excuse for me to run away. In fact, I am not running away. I just need new fresh air, new colours, new inspirations, new challenges. I need new life.
I don't need you to understand me if you don't want to. Too bad for ya. Understanding should come mutually, not by force. I am not born to please everyone, I am not born to be liked by everyone. I have my own friends who knows me well enough. and that's really satisfying, knowing that there's someone out there, understands you the way you understand yourself.
*there's period of time when you have no idea what to do. there's period of time when you can't differentiate right or wrong. there's period of time when you are so lost that you couldn't even recognise your way home. BUT, it is okay, because it's the period of time to make mistake, and learn again. it's like you only when you fall, you will know the way to stand up. TIME CONTINUES, LIFE GOES ON, DON'T GIVE UP.*
I WILL NOT GIVE UP.
1 comment:
hey..long time no see...
Hmm..no la.
Is juz express myself lo~~
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