ReFreshing'*v*'

New coll..new term..new friends...everything is new makes me feel like i've been freshen up...It is indeed seriously something great that happened, i wasn't that tensed anymore worrying how and where would i be in the future..that kind of uncertain feelings make you shivered a little bit sometimes..scary~~well everything brand new means starting all over again, it's seriously doesn't matter to me. i'm not worried bout being elder than others, not even bother bout the so called "generation gap" between me and my younger friends, good new is we get along pretty well+)
Definitely if there's new life, there'll be new thoughts coming out from my mind..i realized i'm more energetic and passionate compare to the time when i was in my old coll..i just have no idea what changed me..i think..maybe it's the atmosphere and the people around changed me..everyone is so determinate and competitive...it's something like the difference between people in Malaysia and Hong Kong...hmmm..i felt nervous but challenging...
Finished figure drawings..suffering but with a little bit of self-enjoyment..
Phew...just that...with one click it's the end of a day..time is flying beyond its limit..and through out the time we discovered, sacrified and learned..with that we were leaded to a better future=)

feeling darn GREAT!!
"I KNOW THAT MY FUTURE IS NOT JUST A DREAM, NOT ANYMORE!!"

*self*

Tonight was one of the greatest night i had during the long break. I had great time talking with my old buddy, faye and her boyfriend zul...what can i say bout them? They are really nice ppl...it's been a really long time since we last met, finally there's time for us like really sit down and talk bout how's life going on and stuff. After the night only i realized time flies, and it's hell faster than i've expected. I looked at her, she was just as fine as ever, lively and oh...i love her smile alot=) i see great changes in her after getting involved in this current relationship with zul, she smile a lil' more often, she became cuter like a baby, and she is a lot happier than she used to be...i'm glad to see that and this should thanks to her boyfriend zul...I seriously think he is a great guy. I donno what's best to describe him, hmmm, "wise" should be the word i guess....
Remembering when we were in high schools, those days were the most craziest and happiest i would say, but come to think bout it it was kinda childish, i mean the things that we had done, words that we had spoken, the mentality in solving problems...time is like a river, it never stop flowing. Time changes the story of life, and time changes us. We are no longer a bird in the cage...we are now the flying eagle in the sky, searching the way to the gate of success, improving self-personalities, seeking answers for the doubts and still having hopes=)I've always believed that hope makes a man. A man without hopes is nothing but a fool. I used to be a fool, gived things up easily, lacked of confident and self-depressed..well that was the old days, when time goes by, breaking through the thicks and thins, having tears and laughters, experiencing the bitterness as well as the sweetness..i'm sort of like grown up, became someone better..well, afterall it isn't hard to change as long as you don't give up learning..the devotion of time and efforts is one of the necessities, of course determinations are necessary. I'd came across with a quote during my self-learning that said, "if you wished to succeed, you should use persistance as your good friend, experience as your reference, prudence as your brother and hope as your sentry"
Circumstances are the rules of the weaks; they are but the instruments of the wise, make use of the ever-changing world and make yourself a "superhuman"=)..well tho it sounds a lil' bit hard, but hey, if there is a will there'll be a way, never give up before you try=)

specially thanks to faye and zul. *tears*

when there is a will, there is a way

When your hope gets defeated, what will you do? Nothing is impossible to a willing heart, when there is life, there is hope. Failure is the mother of success, throughout failing we learn. Once we are learned, we dare to chase after dreams, devote our lifes to the future, believing that dream will come true.

证明你值得

《证明你值得》

你说着，我听着

像海洋打着，沙滩受着

你的忧伤大於快乐，连彩虹都只剩一种颜色

我听着，你说着

像晚风吹着，发丝飘着

就因为爱没有规则，所以心痛了，死了，回不去了

但是我存在着，一直存在着

任何痛苦的负荷，我陪着，你不会孤单着

在你最无助那一刻

我真的存在着，一直存在着

不管时间的区隔，我守着，静静的，我守着

因为我陪着，我守着，你，值得

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这是一位男生，为了心爱的女生所写的一首词，我深深地被打动了。我好羡慕那女孩，能被人证明自己是被守着，被爱着，是一件多么幸福的事。牺牲岁月来等待这样的幸福，不知道算不算浪费？世界的某个角落真的存在着值得我等待的那个人吗？还是说，会有那么一个人真的会出现在

我面前证明我值得？

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以上是我的读后感。第一天，第一次，在这里发的第一篇blog竟然是那么地哀伤，应该会让人不免的觉得我是一个多愁善感的人吧。容许我为自己辩解，我只是比较感性罢了。好啦，是很感性。当我被幻想冲昏了头时，我会很期待会有那么一个人出现，然后希望能爱他个轰轰烈烈的；一旦回到现实时，就会觉得那只是一种盲目的追求，与其荒废岁月等待那个王八蛋，还不如自己去证明自己是值得的（当然要在确定那王八蛋是值得你去证明的情况下，千万别做傻事）。有人说，时间是用来测量爱的深浅。这说明了什么？时间越久，爱就越深吗？别傻了，时间是人类用来换取结果的工具。所谓；“路久知马力，日久见人心”，只要时间长了，便能看见他的心是真是假了。感觉上我好像说得有点太现实了，可是现实就是事实，而事实往往都是残酷的。其实，幻想也并非坏事，至少能让这世界多了些许善良，多了那么一丁点快乐。怎么说呢？幻想是美化现实的工具，偶尔幻想一下，就像是替伤口涂上止痛药一样，暂时忘了痛的感觉。告诉你，现实是伤痕的积累，是负荷重叠曲。而现实的药方，是爱情。因为爱情能让人盲目，陶醉其中。爱情就向毒品一样，会上瘾的。所以，要先认定了，才去试。别误会，我说的是爱情。