today is my birthday where blessings from friends haven't been stop since 11th august night till now through sms and calls and friendster. somehow there's something missing here tonight, i was at home all night long facing the computer doing nothing. feeling empty deep inside wondering what am i looking for? dad wasn't willing to watch atleast a movie with me tonight just because he wanted to watch golf..know what i feel like hating golf sometimes. the first thing comes into parents' mind are golf golf golf and golf and nothing else. all i want is just a movie at home on my night and nothing else why is it so hard?
plan had been cancelled due to some reasons, feeling down because of that makes me feel like i'm the only one left in this world buying myself birthday cake, singing happy birthday to me and all...some of them asked why didn't celebrate or anything...i mean it's your bday and do you purposely go tell everyone "oh today is my birthday so i want you to celebrate with me" like that?
i donno bout others but if it's my closest frens' bday i would put out all my effort to celebrate with her eventhough there's only 2 of us to make sure she is not lonely on her night...
sorry....
i'm just feeling extremely lonely tonight....
just tonight let me cry one last time and i promise i'll never cry because of these small matters again...i promise..
just let me be me tonight
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just felt that sth's wrong with you during sushi...ohhh
eeeeeeee...... jacy emo
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