looking at the moon

He says: “i didnt want to let u go”

InvisibleToad says: “but tomorrow you going jb ma”

He says: “yea”

He says: “can sms only”

He says: “somemore i be working”

InvisibleToad says: “and i'll be doing my finals”

InvisibleToad says: “but don't worry, we’ll still see each other in our dreams”

He says: “yea”

He says: “hey babe”

InvisibleToad says: “hmm?”

He says: “when u miss me at night”

He says: “look at the moon

He says: “least we be looking at the same thing”

InvisibleToad says: “and we are breathing the same air too”

InvisibleToadsays: “living under the same sky”

InvisibleToadsays: “i miss you everynight”

He says: “ same here”

He says: “ you know, I won’t wanna close my eyes and fall sleep because I miss you”

He says: “ even the sweetest dream can never compare to you because I miss you”

your eyes ask me how..

InvisibleToad says:" my bottel bottel, are you ok?"

He says:" yea."

InvisibleToad says:" you geram abit o."

He says:" sorry sometimes i dont know why."

InvisibleToad says:" it's ok, if you know everything then you are god d."

InvisibleToad says:" we are human, there's alot more "why" that we donno."

InvisibleToad says:" it's like i donno why your eyes can tell stories..=)"

He says:" lolx."

InvisibleToad says:" hehe."

He says:" like i donno how you make my heart melt?"

InvisibleToad:" is like i donno why your hand can be so warm and soft and comfy..=)"

thinking deep, should i? or should i not?

i went breakfast with my mom today, as usual, we talked bout our life and stuff, to keep each other updated.

suddenly i brought up the "love" topic, and wonder what she think bout this. and then, she reminds me of many things, that i couldn't see or forgottan....

i asked, if you really like that person, should "realistic" tells you what to do, or you just do it base on what you think?

she said, love comes without any boundaries, it's reality that allows you to make a choice. and now, the reality tells her, that time is still too young for love to come, it's my future that matters the most.

2 years later, i am going to UK, might not be coming back. should i? or should i not let go? is it fair? or is it not? how to not hurt anyone?

do they have another choice?

yesterday night was my fren's bday celebration. after the dinner, a bunch of us has decided to go chow kit to have a look with "a gua pelacur".

there, i saw plenty of them (according to my fren, that night consider very very very little) standing on the street, a very creepy, dark and dirty street, shaking their body trying to grab attention.

we were laughing, i guess ppl enjoy seeing ppl who are different from normal, but deep down in my heart, i felt simpathy.

maybe, just maybe simpathy is the last thing they want from the society? what they wanted, i guess, is hope. hope to reborn? hope to start a new life?

they were laughing, they were dancing, they look happy...but are they?

or should say, do they have another choice?

soft hand

he has soft hand...i felt it that night=)

but...

with plasters...lol

thank you

Tonight is a sleepless night, while listening to the beautiful voice of josh groban, i am here writing a blog=) (obviously)

being honest and telling the truth can actually make someone so relief. i am always an honest person, but was shivered for a sec because i donno how to tell him face to face. finally, i had a long talk with him in msn, and i feel great bout it=) it's a mature way to be honest to each other when you are planning to move on to the next step.

i guess i was hiding myself too much previouly, makes me unhappy and sad. but luckily i manage to talk to my frens and get over it. i am back to happy mode, and try to always be=)

laughing is one of the best thing to do, it gaves hope=) and it shine me in a way. without laughing, i guess i am not being myself.... it's been a long time since i ever laugh like this before, waht a wonderful feeling..=)

i want to laugh, always=)


"love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction"

thank you, for listening. for caring. for understanding. for being honest.

and you really have beautiful eyes, your eyes tell stories..=)

tonight's a great night

Tonight's a great night.

I went out with a fren of mine, or i would say a date??okay....a fren date.. haha...well, whatever it is, the most important thing is that we both having great time talking and chilling out(he told me so).

Flashing back bout what we had chatted, reminds me of the sweet memories when i am living with my grandparents. i miss my grandpa alot alot alot alot alot.......sigh, i miss him, tho he had passed away 6 years ago, not living with us in this house anymore, but i can feel him=) he always like to turn into butterfly, and stay in my pc room for hours!!! i know it's him=)

Anyway, yeah...lol, gosh...i have no idea why am i blogging......


By the way, he is....erm...kinda cute....(damn, he sure damn perasan when he read this)