thinking deep, should i? or should i not?

i went breakfast with my mom today, as usual, we talked bout our life and stuff, to keep each other updated.

suddenly i brought up the "love" topic, and wonder what she think bout this. and then, she reminds me of many things, that i couldn't see or forgottan....

i asked, if you really like that person, should "realistic" tells you what to do, or you just do it base on what you think?

she said, love comes without any boundaries, it's reality that allows you to make a choice. and now, the reality tells her, that time is still too young for love to come, it's my future that matters the most.

2 years later, i am going to UK, might not be coming back. should i? or should i not let go? is it fair? or is it not? how to not hurt anyone?

do they have another choice?

yesterday night was my fren's bday celebration. after the dinner, a bunch of us has decided to go chow kit to have a look with "a gua pelacur".

there, i saw plenty of them (according to my fren, that night consider very very very little) standing on the street, a very creepy, dark and dirty street, shaking their body trying to grab attention.

we were laughing, i guess ppl enjoy seeing ppl who are different from normal, but deep down in my heart, i felt simpathy.

maybe, just maybe simpathy is the last thing they want from the society? what they wanted, i guess, is hope. hope to reborn? hope to start a new life?

they were laughing, they were dancing, they look happy...but are they?

or should say, do they have another choice?

soft hand

he has soft hand...i felt it that night=)

but...

with plasters...lol

thank you

Tonight is a sleepless night, while listening to the beautiful voice of josh groban, i am here writing a blog=) (obviously)

being honest and telling the truth can actually make someone so relief. i am always an honest person, but was shivered for a sec because i donno how to tell him face to face. finally, i had a long talk with him in msn, and i feel great bout it=) it's a mature way to be honest to each other when you are planning to move on to the next step.

i guess i was hiding myself too much previouly, makes me unhappy and sad. but luckily i manage to talk to my frens and get over it. i am back to happy mode, and try to always be=)

laughing is one of the best thing to do, it gaves hope=) and it shine me in a way. without laughing, i guess i am not being myself.... it's been a long time since i ever laugh like this before, waht a wonderful feeling..=)

i want to laugh, always=)


"love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction"

thank you, for listening. for caring. for understanding. for being honest.

and you really have beautiful eyes, your eyes tell stories..=)

tonight's a great night

Tonight's a great night.

I went out with a fren of mine, or i would say a date??okay....a fren date.. haha...well, whatever it is, the most important thing is that we both having great time talking and chilling out(he told me so).

Flashing back bout what we had chatted, reminds me of the sweet memories when i am living with my grandparents. i miss my grandpa alot alot alot alot alot.......sigh, i miss him, tho he had passed away 6 years ago, not living with us in this house anymore, but i can feel him=) he always like to turn into butterfly, and stay in my pc room for hours!!! i know it's him=)

Anyway, yeah...lol, gosh...i have no idea why am i blogging......


By the way, he is....erm...kinda cute....(damn, he sure damn perasan when he read this)

找自己

把留了很多年的长发剪短，找到了已经忘记的自己。


离开后，才发现自己受了委屈。
离开后，才发现自己错过了很多。
离开后，才发现世界变大了，天空也长高了。


爱得很深，又如何？
付出很多，又怎样？

到头来，也是要放弃的。


放弃了一年的感情。
放弃了爱他的心情。
放弃了有过的回忆。

得到了想要的自由。


这样，其实对大家都好。

真的，这样就好。







希望希望，在我看不到的时候，他会好好的过日子。
希望希望，当我不在身边的时候，他会坚强努力。


希望希望，他会开开心心。

希望希望，他会爱自己。

就像我爱他一样，就像他爱我一样。







最后一次，在这里叫你一声

“宝贝，要好好爱自己！！”

一个人

坎坷的童年过后,从来没有再一个人走街，吃饭。这是我的原则。

今天，是第一次。

漫无精心地驾着车在路上行驶，脑袋一片空白。

到了目的地，逛逛，买东西，吃寿司。一个人逛，一个人买，一个人吃。

不知不觉，用了整千块。买完了，逛玩了，吃完了，回家。

我从来不会一个人吃饭，如果没人陪，我宁愿不吃。
我从来不会一个人逛街，如果没人陪，我宁愿不逛。
我从来不会一个人买东西，如果没人陪，我宁愿不买。

全因为，怕寂寞。

今天，所有的“不会”我都一个人完成。

到底为什么？

因该是不服吧，不服承诺过的人，临时改变主意。
因为她，心情真的非常地糟。不想见人，不想说话，只想一个人，做一个人可以做的事。

我不需要你陪，不要不要了。

今天的笑容很少，今天没说过一句话。

这样的我其实很可怕，因为连销售员都不敢跟我说话了。

真好笑。

一个人做着一个人作的事，真得很好笑。

我却。。。。。


笑不出来。